Through The Windows Of October #12 2016

Hello my lovely friends. Enjoy today’s poem and illustration.

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Little Dancer

Little dancer
Floating across the room

What must you feel
Weaving like an ancient loom

Full of grace
Transcending time and space

Strong bones
Long legs wrapped in muscle

Listening to tones
Of visual music

Spinning around
Until you hit the ground

We get lost
Deep within your laughter

Laughing is tossed
Aside. Tears begin to flow

Because one word
You heard from miles away

I spend ages
Rebuilding you. Wanting you to stay

But one day
You go only leaving your shadow

We put you
Into the cold hard earth

We sing your song
Because for you, we long

Little dancer
Why did you die?

Why did you
Give up over stupid words?

We see you
Walking around in business suits

But you killed
Something inside yourself

That day
You listened to what they say

Keep following your dreams. Keep doing every little thing that makes you, you! 

Allie ❤

“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”  ― Ralph Waldo Emerson

#22 NaPoWriMo, Butterfly Fly…

Hello my lovely friends. Today’s challenge was to write something in honor of earth day. I will not get into why I am not comfortable writing about earth day but I did not follow that challenge. I instead looked for inspiration, I found it in a post by Miss Madi (aka Owly) about adulting and growing up. She really got me thinking about adulthood. Enjoy.

Butterfly Fly

I’m sick of this cocoon
I need to leave it soon

It’s thick walls of protection
Are killing my production

My passion has been caged
My creativity has been aged

I need to grow anew
Learning my worldview

Everything is blue
This one thing I know is true
Everything is new

So I will spread my wings
I will do many new things

I will learn to fly
I will touch the sky

You and I shall become
The beat of our own drum

We will fly so high
We’ll have to say bye

But we butterflies
Will learn to be wise

Everything is blue
This one thing I know is true
Everything is new

That is what we shall do
Change the world through

Loving kindness
It won’t be tearless

But it will be worth it
Just to be able to sit

And know the pain
Shame, hurt made plain

Seeing the strength in their eyes
Holding them, hearing their cries

That is how we will help heal
Their souls by praying as we kneel

Before God asking for salvation
healing and grace for the nation

Everything is blue
This one thing I know is true
Everything is new

I hope you enjoyed this poem, it’s my vision of my future, my adult life. It’s my greatest desire. I really want to see healing and peace for all people. It’s my greatest prayer. I hope your day has been well. Keep smiling, your smile is gorgeous. ❤

Allie ❤

“Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, she became a butterfly.”
― Barbara Haines Howett

#13 NaPoWriMo, You’ll Find Love…

Hello my lovely friends. Today’s challenge is to write a poem with a lucky line inspired from a fortune cookie. I picked a very cheesy fortune cookie line. But a very serious storyline. Enjoy!!!

You’ll Find Love

I. Shutting them out,
I can’t bear when they shout.
They won’t even notice I’m not about.
Walking aimlessly I end up in China town.
No one seems to see my deep frown.
The rain hides my tears.
Wanting to hope but trusting fears.
The neon signs shine like stars,
And it seems to smell like heaven.

II. The little bell rings.
Their welcoming voices sing.
The warmth in the air
Like getting a hug from a bear.
I sit at a back table.
Believing the fighting was a fable.
My family is stable.

III. I order potstickers, rice
And beef ramen.
The smell is nice.
I forget about the pain,
For now.
Somehow.
I let the meal
Take me to a happier time.
Before I had to hide
Everything I feel.
Back to the days
My mom would cook
She didn’t have that dead look.
Before I knew what abuse was…
Before when I felt loved.
I eat slowly.
Feeling so lonely.
Wishing I could talk
But no one will listen…

III. The girl brings my bill.
And a small cookie.
“What will my fortune be today?”
I laughing push it away.
While I wait for my card.
My face is emotionless and hard.
I pick the cookie up.
It reads,
“You’ll find love
When you least expect it.”
I scoff. I roll my eyes and bite
My lip, as I throw it aside.
The pain I try so desperately to hide
Crawling onto my stone cold face.
I leave that building like an ace.
I run.
I run.
Never looking back.

IIII. That silly stupid paper.
I don’t even feel the rain,
Or the cuts…
But I feel the pain
Of my broken home.
The pain of faking strength.
The pain of never having hope.
Never having a future.
Never knowing if I will live until tomorrow.
It kills my soul that lowly sorrow.
It rips me apart.
Right from the start.
My poor young heart
Can’t handle this…
This lonely
Sad,
Broken
Pain.
I fall to me knees
And like a monster,
Letting my insides explode.
Letting every wall
Come crashing down.
Not caring who sees.
Not caring anymore
At all.
Just wanting to be numb from this pain
That is killing me.

V. Wet from rain,
Crying and blood.
I brush my knees off.
Too weak to stand
Too weak to live.
Too tired of trying.
Never winning.
I’ve lost every drop of hope.
The only hope I have is dying.
In death I will find no pain.
But I am not brave enough…
I am too weak to even take
Take my own life.
I look up into the heavens.
The stars hidden behind clouds.
The moon gone.
Nothing but rain.
And blackness.
I whisper
“Please. Please, show me true love.”
Nothing happens.
At all.
I sit like a drowned rat.
I couldn’t get any lower.

VI. I guess I can go home again.
It’s way past ten.
He will be so drunk…
Out cold.
She will be at work.
Drowning her grief.
I stand up.
Feeling dizzy and sick.
I walk around a minute.
I see the park.
The one with the view of the lighthouse.
My favorite place.
I walk on hoping to see
The lighthouse shine
One more time.
I think of that stupid paper.
I sigh.
Who am I…
To be worthy of love.

VII. I find the lighthouse
Misty and alone.
I wish I was strong like her…
Never failing to spread light.
Saving people from the darkest night.
All I want is to be loved…
I’d give anything.
I hear a gentle voice
Break through my thoughts.
“It’s a terribly cold tonight.”
I look over to see an older man.
I nod.
But wonder if he could even see it.
“I remember long ago.
On a cold night.
That lighthouse saved my life.”
His smile lit by her beam.
“She is stronger than she seem.
I was going to jump.
From that cliff.”
His bone finger shakes
Pointing to a spot.
A spot I had thought over
Many times.
“But there was an old man.
A salt of the sea.
He stopped me.
He told me of a great hope.
Greater than the end of a rope.
He told me of a man.
Whom like the lighthouse
Saves men.
This man loved me.
He died for me.”
I looked over at the old man
To see if he was crazy.
But I’ll never forget
What I saw in his eye.
“Jesus, died on a cross.
He took all my sin
And pain.”
There in that old man’s eyes.
I saw it.
Love.
True love
And hope.

VIII. I talked with the man.
He told me everything
About this Jesus
Who walked on the sea!
The lighthouse of the world.
Saving all who will trust his light.
I found a great friend that night.
My home has not changed.
But I have joy and hope.
No it’s not strange!
I have Jesus
My greatest love and savior.
He took me when I was too weak.
When I saw everything as bleak.
He took all my pain
And he told me, He loved me
Again and again.
I am a new girl.
Who has hope for tomorrow.
And a high tower to run to with all my sorrow!
I love Jesus.
He has change me.
He has made me whole.
Now I want the whole world to know!!!

Sorry, I know this is very long for me. Anywho I hope you are having an amazing week. Keep smiling, awesome sauce!!!

Allie ❤

“Lighthouses don’t go running all over an island looking for boats to save; they just stand there shining.”
― Anne Lamott

#12 NaPoWriMo, True Worship…

Hello my lovely friends. Today’s challenge is to write an index poem. I honestly had an awful time with this style and finding inspiration… Maybe today was just a bad day. But I did try. Enjoy.

True Worship

Walking in your ways.
Trusting you for all my wants.
You are my mighty arm in war,
And my well of holy water.
I do give thee all my will.
You are my wisdom.
Listening for thy welcomed words.
I see your majestic works,
In this present world.
I sing and worship,
For you are my King.

This was really interesting and kinda weird for me to write. Honestly I didn’t enjoy it. I found it very… confining. But over all I’m glad I tried it. I can truthfully say I won’t ever write another poem like this. I may look for a word or a thought in the index but not the whole poem. Anywho now that I have reviewed this style of poetry. I hope you are having a wonderful day. Also I’m curious did any of you write an index poem and did you enjoy it? Let me know in the comments. Keep smiling, awesome sauce!!!

Allie ❤
Ps. Lest you get the wrong idea. I love worshipping. I love the subject of my poem very much… I just don’t like the style in which it has been written. [=

Only in the act of praise and worship can a person learn to believe in the goodness and greatness of God.” — C.S. Lewis

(Act. Worship. Learn. Believe. God.)

#3 NaPoWriMo, My Prayer…

Hello my lovely friends. Today’s challenge was to write a letter to a celebrity… I didn’t. I honestly couldn’t think of anyone I would want to write to/about. I couldn’t find any inspiration. I instead decided to write a letter/prayer to God. I hope you enjoy

My prayer

My heart longs to praise your name.
To sing of your great fame,
How your loving arms protect your people.
I want to shout your just mercy high to the steeple.
I desire to minister encouragement,
Giving hours, days, years well spent.
My lips will forever praise your majesty.
My heart will only worship thee.
I give you my all.
I yearn for you to be great in me,
And I to be small.

I hope you all had a wonderful Sunday. Keep smiling, awesome sauce. [=

Allie ❤

Worship is simply giving God his breath back.” –Louie Giglio

Thanksgiving Day…

Hello my lovely friends, I hope you are having a wonderful thanksgiving! Today I wrote a haiku inspired poem to wish you all a very happy thanksgiving! Enjoy!!!

Thanksgiving Day

Happy Thanksgiving.
Hold close friends and family.
Have a thankful day!

Thankfully praise God,
For blessings undeserved,
and daily mercies.

Thankfulness daily,
Brings true happiness and joy.
Happy thanksgiving!!!

I hope you are all having a wonderful thanksgiving!!! Hold your loved ones close, enjoy them while you can! Share something you’re thankful for in the comments!!! I’m thankful for people! Without people I wouldn’t be who I am today. ❤

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Until we meet again my lovely friend
Princess Allie ❤

“Give thanks for a little and you will find a lot“~Hausa Proverb

Through The Windows Of October #26

Hello friends, today’s inspiration comes from depression. It’s about conquering small doses of depression. Of course if you have depressive thoughts more than a few times a month you should go to your Doctor and talk to someone about it. But this is the depression we all feel and face in our everyday life’s.

Feelings
It started with a need,
A need to be freed.

A fake smile,
Pretending awhile.

My heart beating fast,
Wishing this were all past.

Wanting hopes to collide,
Dreaming my future aside.

But I have no hope…
Just a long rope.

A way out…
No ones about.

The dark night…
The moon light.

Something swallows me whole,
I feel it deep in my soul…

I hear a voice…
Telling me to make a choice.

I can feel…
The numbness is real.

I don’t understand,
I lift my hand.

I see my fingers move,
Staring at the tiny grove.

I know in my head,
That I should go to bed.

I should forget this wave,
To my feelings, I am not a slave.

I need to force myself to choose reason.
Reason… Reason… Reason…

I must remove this from my mind.
Before it’s my body that they find…

This is only depression.
I can stop this oppression.

I need to find my calling,
Stop this endless falling.

I must instill meaning,
Into my being…

I must look ahead and remember,
I can make it through December.

I can make it through the cold.
When it’s Jesus that I hold.

I can make it through tonight.
With that one ray of light…

I have a purpose…
I may not see it on the surface.

But I conquered the rope,
I’m holding onto a drop of hope.

I’ve looked past my sorrow,
Into some else’s tomorrow.

My today really isn’t that bad.
I’m just a little sad…

I cannot control,
The uncontrollable.

Myself I must console,
While words are consolable.

For me, there is no need for pills,
Just for hugs, when I feel the chills.

I just need a reminder.
God has made me a survivor.

I hope you guys are all doing well, I’ll make this short since my poem was so long. I just wanted to share this for anyone who is struggling with depression or sadness. I want you to know you are not alone and God loves you. God has made a way out just for you. I love you too. I’ll be back tomorrow with a new post. Keep your chins held high and smile. {=

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Princess Allie ❤

Through The Windows Of October #25

Hello friends, today’s inspiration comes from facing difficulties in life.

The Stormy Sea

When my ship is sinking low,
And all I see is woe.
When I feel I can’t go on,
Life has passed me on.
That’s when he comes walking,
On the water where I’m drowning.
He whispers to me “my child I am here.”
“I’ll never give you more then you can bear.”

I hope you have all enjoyed your weekend and have gotten some rest!!! I will be back tomorrow with a new post. Keep smiling on!

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Princess Allie ❤

Through The Windows Of October #5

Hello guys! ^_^ I hope you are all having an amazing Monday! Well today I have a poem that will brighten your spirits! (Hopefully!) =D

The Sunrise

The Painting On The Wall

There are two paintings on my wall
I made them when I wasn’t very tall
When things of importance were small
Back when I lived to kick a soccer ball
And play outside within my mothers call

Now things are different from my childhood days
The simplicity of life’s magic still stays
I still love dressing up and acting in plays
And sometime even swimming in bays
Memories come flowing back of molding clays

Now everything is filled with anxiety and fear
We can never get close or hold loved ones near
Because we’re to busy to comfort their tear
We no longer have time to listen and hear
Am I the only one finding this queer?

I think we all need to take a look back
Before the days we started talking smack
That time long ago we played in an old shack
We kept all our treasures in a blue backpack
Long before we had our names in a plaque.

Yes, back to those days we played by the brook
And we read Grimm’s fairy tale book
Remember the time we played campfire cook
We still need the joy, playtime and cleaver look
We had on those adventures we undertook

I stare at the paintings made in my childhood past
And I realize it will be okay to finish last
To take my time, think, pray and fast
Smell the roses and have a blast
Because the wisdom I grain will be vast.
Sunset

I hope you enjoyed the poem! I’ll see you again in a post tomorrow. (=

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Princess Allie ❤

Through The Windows Of October #1

It’s the first day of October!!! ^_^ That means it’s the first day of Through the Windows of October! xD I decided to start off by writing about the most important thing to me, my faith! I hope you all are having an awesome day!!! Enjoy!!!

My Heavenly Father

Through the first window you shall see
What’s most important to me.
My heavenly father, My king.
He’s my inspiration when I sing.
I love seeing that twinkle in his eyes.
I can’t wait to be telling the earth my goodbyes.
But I must wait.
My Father is never late.
My Father asks me to show the earth his grace.
I am learning to be content in this place.
I will kiss the children of men.
I will teach them how my father washes away sin,
Making us victorious over evil again and again.
I will show them how to win!
My Father will bless them for he is Just.
We’ll learn to walk by faith and trust.
So until my Father takes us home
We must learn to live content and blameless before him.

Thank you all for reading! God bless and have a beautiful day! If this has blessed you please feel free to like or share. See you tomorrow!!! ^_^ And don’t forget to smile today! 😉

Princess Allie ❤