6 years ago today…

This is my testimony. I was saved 6 years ago in a small country church in Georgia, Faith. I was saved at Faith (the church I was in), by Faith (I had to put my faith in God) and through Faith (God’s plan of Salvation). 🙂

June 14th 2009,
I remember it like,
It’s been photographed in my mind.
The blue carpeted floors,
The blue chairs,
Me sitting in the second row.
The preacher a missionary,
His message from psalms 23,
The peace of God.
The gentle voice of God.
The still waters of God.
I had never known this side of God
The God I knew was urgent, calling, pleading and true,
He kept saying,
“You hypocrite, stop living a lie,
Come, be brave, I’ll take you,
Trust me, I’m enough.”
But the missionary said the voice of God
Was sweet, kind and full of love.
I didn’t know these rivers of peace
Or green grass of rest.
My peace was knowing I had to fight
Everyday and night!
If I stopped I would drowned,
Or worse my mind would come to life.
I sat there thinking knowing the truth
One choice, one action, one soul and life.
I ran to the alter and cried out in tears,
Trying to tell myself hope was here,
I had said the prayer before
I had done my part.
The missionary came to me and asked
“Are you saved?”
I lied.
“Yes, ever since I was young.”
I had told myself this lie for years,
I could fake it ’til I made it…
But how do I know for sure I’m even faking it?
The confusion, what my heart knew
And what my head knew to be true
The missionary came to me again and asked
“Are you sure you are saved?”
“Yes!” I cried in anger and pain.
I said the prayer, I know what Jesus has done
He died for me
He bled for me
He hung in shame on a cross for me
My sin put him there
The pastor walked over to me
He spoke gently and asked
“Are you truly saved?”
That moment I broke
Nothing but tears came out
That moment I stopped lying to myself
I replied with a shake of my head
“No, no I’m not.”
In my own word and in my heart
I cried out to God
“Please. Please save me.”
My heart trusting him fully
I was no longer in control
I couldn’t fight anymore
Because I had found the light
What was once broken
Christ made whole.
What was broken in me was my sin
That burden of sin, I’ll never see it again!
That day I became the daughter of the King of Kings.
With all the delight and joy he brings.
He took me into his arms, family and one day his home.
I’ve never been the same
I was truly changed that day
Yes, being a Christian is “hard”
But it’s so much harder being
Lost, without God’s hope and peace.
Drowning in sin and seeking love but never finding it.
Being unforgiven and slaves to sin
That is what’s truly hard in this life.
I would never go back
I would never change that decision.

In the past 6 years I’ve grown in my faith and had the privilege to see God work in my life and lives around me. I pray God uses this to help, bless and minister to your heart.

Princess Allie ❤

Saint Patrick’s Day

Have you ever wondered what Saint Patrick’s day is??? Or why we wear green on Saint Patrick’s day??? I did a little research because I was wondering about this seemingly random holiday on march 17th.

Saint Patrick was a British christian brother who lived around the 5th century. When Saint Patrick was about 16 he was kidnapped by a group of Irish pirates. St. Patrick was captive for 6 years until he escaped and sailed back to Britain. The ship faced rough seas and when the ship finally made it to shore st Patrick had to walk home. During these great trials in st Patrick’s life, his faith in God was becoming stronger.

After having a vision for some years of a shepherd boy walking among the hills and teaching the Irish people about God. St Patrick returned to Ireland as a missionary and faced the many trails of a life in ministry. St Patrick used the shamrock to explain the Holy Trinity to the Irish people and lead many to the Lord.

St. Patrick died on March 17th. Now we celebrate his life, courage and faith in God on March 17th. We wear green and shamrocks because of the creative way St Patrick used them to share the love of God. St Patrick is a very inspiring minster.

Have a wonderfully Happy Saint Patrick’s day!

Until we meet again

Princess Allie ❤

When Faith is hard.

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. ~Hebrews 11:1 kjv

Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest. ~Joshua 1:9 kjv

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. ~2 Timothy 1:7 kjv

The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in him, and I am helped: therefore my heart greatly rejoiceth; and with my song will I praise him. ~Psalms 28:7 kjv

I sought the LORD, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears. ~Psalms 34:4 kjv

As for me, I will call upon God; and the LORD shall save me. Evening, and morning, and at noon, will I pray, and cry aloud: and he shall hear my voice. He hath delivered my soul in peace from the battle that was against me: for there were many with me. God shall hear, and afflict them, even he that abideth of old. Selah. Because they have no changes, therefore they fear not God. He hath put forth his hands against such as be at peace with him: he hath broken his covenant. The words of his mouth were smoother than butter, but war was in his heart: his words were softer than oil, yet were they drawn swords. Cast thy burden upon the LORD, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved. But thou, O God, shalt bring them down into the pit of destruction: bloody and deceitful men shall not live out half their days; but I will trust in thee. ~Psalms 55:16-23 kjv

Living by faith is hard. It’s putting our hope and trust in God. We can’t see God, we can’t explain him or understand all his wondrous ways. Things happen in our lives catching us off guard. A loved one gets sick, we must make a tough decision, we get hurt, a loved one dies, we have a flat tire etc. A lot of things can happen in one day. When we chose to live by faith we know that no matter what comes that day, God has a plan to get us through it.

In one moment our life can change forever. God can use the change for good, if we let him. God can take the bad things in our lives, the stress, the pain, the heartache, the tears and make them beautiful.

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. ~Romans 8:28 kjv

They that sow in tears shall reap in joy. He that goeth forth and weepeth, bearing precious seed, shall doubtless come again with rejoicing, bringing his sheaves with him. ~Psalms 126:5-6 kjv

What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee. In God I will praise his word, in God I have put my trust; I will not fear what flesh can do unto me. ~Psalms 56:3-4 kjv

Not everything that happens to us is good but God can use it for good. Not everything that happens to us is God’s plan but God can use it for our good. Like sin, Sin was never in God’s perfect plan. God has given us the greatest gift of love because of sin. His son came to earth to die for us, to wash away our sin. There will be pain and death in this life but God has promised a perfect world. Heaven where one day all things will be good, perfect and whole, complete. Until then we must face the world and all it has, the good and bad but there is always hope of a brighter tomorrow.

Our Faith is the only thing to get us through. Faith, trust and hope are the best tools in this life. When our world is shaken and we have nothing to stand on. We have thrust in God, faith in his word, which gives us hope for tomorrow. I’m not going to say everything will be magically easier or that knowing these things makes everything better. Because, to be honest, me telling you will not help, you must know it yourself. We have to believe ourselves, this is something we have to learn, to do over and over everyday. It is being thankful and rejoicing in God’s presents for ourselves. This relationship is something no one can have for us. It’s something we have to believe on our own.

We all must learn how to live by faith. It is a personal path. No one can walk it for us but that doesn’t mean we walk it alone. God will always be with us and there is always someone walking close enough to our path to help us along. Let us walk our own paths in grace and faith. There is always hope while the King of kings in on the throne!

 

Princess Allie ❤